New Mercies

A prayer of mine the past 2 or so months has been that I would see the sinfulness of my sin and to realize how my sin separated me from God. A few days ago, I believe God allowed me to see a glimpse of my former state of rebellion towards Him and how He poured His mercy upon my life. I was singing several worship songs in the shower (Oh you know you sing in the shower too! ;) and started to sing the song "This is my desire" (Also titled "Lord I give You my Heart"). As I began singing it, God used that song to show me how He changed my life just the same way He used that song in 2007 to change my life. At that time, I was living in sin yet leading worship at church, singing that very song when the Lord so convicted me that I knew I had to repent and turn to Christ. Here I was singing about giving Him all that I am yet behind the scenes, I was a rebel child. God showed me how He had been patient and merciful towards me. I could have died in my state of rebellion towards Him and my soul be in hell but because of His love and His patience towards me, He brought me to repentance. 

I came across this verse as I was reading in Psalms this morning and it seemed to just fit everything I've been meditating on the past few days:

 "Gracious is the Lord, and righteous;

our God is merciful.

The Lord preserves the simple;

when I was brought low, he saved me.

Return, O my soul, to your rest;

for the Lord has dealt bountifully with you.

For you have delivered my soul from death,

my eyes from tears,

my feet from stumbling;

I will walk before the Lord

in the land of the living."
Ps 116:5-9

I'm so grateful for His patience towards me when I spit in His face with the lifestyle I once lived. He has saved my soul from Death and I owe Him my life.